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yesterday was a very long day.thought it wouldn’t end.
at 1AM, AIAH HAD A HARDTIME IN BREATHING…again, neb and then suction. had an abg, she retained carbon dioxide. at 5am, WE STARTED AMBUBAGING…until now… she was so pale, NEED A BLOOD TRANSFUSION. blood costs P1,200.we don’t neccessary have to buy the blood…we can save money for other things we have to do for aiah. there is another option, find donors. we contacted some people to ask to donate blood for her. some replied…but didn’t confirm. so we wait…wait…and wait. time is running…she was so pale, having a hard time in breathing. oh! i forgot to mention, her feeding was on hold again. i have to find a way. i asked my friends in the hospital, room mates in room 119, fellow mothers to donate. they were scared but finally they said yes. we were 3 who went to the blood bank but both of them were deferred. one is underweight and the other has low hemoglobin. i ended up to donate alone. unfortunately, clotted. but they said it was counted as 1 donor. i have to find another donor again.
aiah was transferred to room 121 (intermediate i.c.u.) to closely monitor her. tried to put her in the cpap mode. her O2 sat was 99 but still it was hard for her to breath…so, back to ambubaging.
and then the dietary staff told me that WE NEED TO BUY HER MILK (NUTREN JUNIOR). last mixture will be at 2am.
and then another bomb exploded, DOCTORS ORDERED A REPEAT OF BLOOD CULTURE AND SENSITIVITY (it’s worth P2,500.).they stated AIAH’S CONDITION WAS WORST. xray was worst, cbc was worst…abg was worst…they suspected, maybe she has another infection aside from klebsiella.we have to know if she needs another antibiotic to add to meropenem (the golden antibiotic).THANK GOD! SOME PEOPLE DONATED MEROPENEM.
we have to settle the blood and the blood culture and sensitivity immediately. I WANT TO SCREAM! I WANT TO EXPLODE! I WANT TO CRY…BUT NO!!! I HAVE TO BE STRONG. I HAVE NO CHOICE BUT TO BE STRONG.
my sister who never fail to help me all the way was started to feel not well. she started coughing. she and i had no chance to go home for a couple of days, because we have no one to rely on to take care of aiah. i already conditioned her to go home to get some rest for my sister in law agreed to be left with me… but another problem came. a text message came from my ate, “MY ELDEST HAS A SLIGHT FEVER FOR SHE HAS A DRY COUGH”…THAT’S IT! right there and then, i broke down and cry…PAGOD NA PAGOD NA ‘KO… HANGGANG KAILAN…? i don’t want anyone to see me crying…but i really can’t fight it anymore.
i have to make a decision. i don’t want to leave aiah in that condition but i have to go home. Phia (my eldest daughter) needs a close monitoring when she has fever because she had experienced seizure.
but before we leave, we have to settle aiah’s needs. my husband came…gave me 2k, from whom he lended it, i don’t know. i paid the partial payment of blood c/s and the half of the amount of the blood she needs because i didn’t find another donor.
-izang
aiah’s mom
